there I am again,
surrounded by people who call them self friends.
They never listen
There problems are bigger
And they always say mean things to me
They follow me everywhere,
They are never there
And specially when I need them
They always copy everything
And when I almost fall,
They give me the last push
Than they laugh
And feel proud
Sometimes I just want to be alone
And then they are at the same place
I can't seem to get rid of them
They are like there
As I run away they run harder
As I get away the find me
As I cry .
They laugh
They seem ten times smarter than me
The know what I think
There are good once
Those
Your blond hair hanging on your shoulders
a grin from ear to ear
those eyes of you go right trough me
A sing of depression behind you
nobody saw it
not much knew it
Now we know it
we see it
we feel it
We all saw the movies
we saw your picture in every tabloid
and the people who didn't knew you now do know you
You looked so shy
so weird when I saw you
but now I see you as a person
Not as superman
not as someone who has it all
but as a insecure person
There was thunder a lightning
a hit when I saw you
I changed in to someone else
since that laugh
The sun is looking different now a days
I aint insecure anymore
I aint scared to hurt you anymore
and I aint loving you!
Now a day I feel free to laugh
I laugh about your poor fears
now we laugh
and we isn't us anymore but me and your best friend
now a day I can cry again
I don't feel guilty anymore
I don't give a dam bout what you think
and I don't care about you anymore
now a day I aint drunk anymore
I don't need the alcohol!
I don't need it to feel good or free!
And I don't have anything to prove anymore
now a day I don't care about my reputation!
I see only what i wanna see
I'll be only what i wanna be
my blanket covers me,
My blanket lies next to me
it covers my eyes
I am scared
I saw you coming in
I don't want to see it all
I aint scared
but my blanket covers me
it helped me out so many time
not only with you
but with everything
it all looks much better with it
I can hide me behind it
I can tell it all my secrets
and he will keep them
he is the only one I need
I don't need a man or woman to protect me
my blanket covers me!
Its a beautiful day by ShouldEverBeForgot, literature
Literature
Its a beautiful day
The sun, the sky, the earth
They look so beautiful
So warm and kind
The water of the see looks really blue
The sand is warm and yellow
The people smile
They are having fun
They dance and sing
This would be a beautiful day to die.
I aint perfect neither are you by ShouldEverBeForgot, literature
Literature
I aint perfect neither are you
I wear my red flip-flops under baggy jeans.
A black tank top with a bright colorful sweater
I don't wear make-up
And my short hair looks like i came just out of bed
On my left wrist you see bracelets.
On the right scares of self-hate and monsters
Monsters like you, like her
Monsters that look perfect, but i don't want to be
Monsters that call you names
That think they can do everything
But deep inside they love me, adore me or want to be like me.
Different in every way
And not some clone of someone
I don't want to be in love with you anymore
I hate it when I think about you
I hate it when I talk about you
but the thing I hate the most is that I can't let you go
I need to think of you all day
just to get through it
I make contact with people I liked in the past
but I can't stop thinking about you
I run, I sing I do almost everything
but your everywhere
in the songs I sing
in the paths I walk
in the wind I run through
it just all reminds me of you
there I am again,
surrounded by people who call them self friends.
They never listen
There problems are bigger
And they always say mean things to me
They follow me everywhere,
They are never there
And specially when I need them
They always copy everything
And when I almost fall,
They give me the last push
Than they laugh
And feel proud
Sometimes I just want to be alone
And then they are at the same place
I can't seem to get rid of them
They are like there
As I run away they run harder
As I get away the find me
As I cry .
They laugh
They seem ten times smarter than me
The know what I think
There are good once
Those
Your blond hair hanging on your shoulders
a grin from ear to ear
those eyes of you go right trough me
A sing of depression behind you
nobody saw it
not much knew it
Now we know it
we see it
we feel it
We all saw the movies
we saw your picture in every tabloid
and the people who didn't knew you now do know you
You looked so shy
so weird when I saw you
but now I see you as a person
Not as superman
not as someone who has it all
but as a insecure person
There was thunder a lightning
a hit when I saw you
I changed in to someone else
since that laugh
The sun is looking different now a days
I aint insecure anymore
I aint scared to hurt you anymore
and I aint loving you!
Now a day I feel free to laugh
I laugh about your poor fears
now we laugh
and we isn't us anymore but me and your best friend
now a day I can cry again
I don't feel guilty anymore
I don't give a dam bout what you think
and I don't care about you anymore
now a day I aint drunk anymore
I don't need the alcohol!
I don't need it to feel good or free!
And I don't have anything to prove anymore
now a day I don't care about my reputation!
I see only what i wanna see
I'll be only what i wanna be
my blanket covers me,
My blanket lies next to me
it covers my eyes
I am scared
I saw you coming in
I don't want to see it all
I aint scared
but my blanket covers me
it helped me out so many time
not only with you
but with everything
it all looks much better with it
I can hide me behind it
I can tell it all my secrets
and he will keep them
he is the only one I need
I don't need a man or woman to protect me
my blanket covers me!
Its a beautiful day by ShouldEverBeForgot, literature
Literature
Its a beautiful day
The sun, the sky, the earth
They look so beautiful
So warm and kind
The water of the see looks really blue
The sand is warm and yellow
The people smile
They are having fun
They dance and sing
This would be a beautiful day to die.
I aint perfect neither are you by ShouldEverBeForgot, literature
Literature
I aint perfect neither are you
I wear my red flip-flops under baggy jeans.
A black tank top with a bright colorful sweater
I don't wear make-up
And my short hair looks like i came just out of bed
On my left wrist you see bracelets.
On the right scares of self-hate and monsters
Monsters like you, like her
Monsters that look perfect, but i don't want to be
Monsters that call you names
That think they can do everything
But deep inside they love me, adore me or want to be like me.
Different in every way
And not some clone of someone
I don't want to be in love with you anymore
I hate it when I think about you
I hate it when I talk about you
but the thing I hate the most is that I can't let you go
I need to think of you all day
just to get through it
I make contact with people I liked in the past
but I can't stop thinking about you
I run, I sing I do almost everything
but your everywhere
in the songs I sing
in the paths I walk
in the wind I run through
it just all reminds me of you
Screaming, crying, yelling; it never seems to end.
All this swaring and cursing is becoming quite a trend.
Take me back to the good days, the way things used to be,
That's right, as usual, blame it all on me.
"You haven't done this, you're making my life hell"
"I barlely slept last night, behave, I'm not well"
"Oh sod off I'm stressed, go back to your cave"
"Fuck off you whore, go die in your grave"
Heavy music pounding to cover up the wailing,
Even full blast Iron Maiden is drastically failing.
There's tears coming from the kitchen, and more from upstairs,
There's a huge cloud of isolation, as if nobody cares.
"You couldn't give
There's beauty in my breakdown,
so it's best to let me fall.
My towers of strength are crumbling,
I've built them up too tall.
The foundations were too weak,
let them fall to the ground.
Next time I'll make them steady,
with extra strength around.
So don't try to catch me,
and don't cushion my blow,
It's something I need to go through,
I must in order to grow.
Falling makes you feel alive,
it builds your strength inside,
It trains you up for worse to come,
and shows the pain you hide.
I can't do this without you,
so be there when I need to cry,
Hold your arms out just in case,
and wipe my tears dry.
I may be physically wea
He makes me want to sing,
He makes me feel like I can fly.
He is my-everything,
He brought me back to life.
I owe him so much,
He's done a lot for me.
He has earned my heart; he has earned my love,
I'm happy that he's with me.
I know that I have a lot of problems,
I know that it's going to take me a while to get over everything.
I'm glad that he's willing to help me get through them,
I'm glad that no matter what he'll be there for me.
It was hard letting him into my heart,
I've been hurt away too many times.
But I knew that he was going to be important to me from the start.
I love him with my whole being,
It's a miracle that
She was no good at drama, but the best actress you'll find,
Keeping a smile on her face when the whole world was unkind.
There was never a moment when she showed her emotions,
And she always kept her pain to her bedroom, where she cried huge oceans.
She learnt to keep strong when her world was turned upside down,
And she was known as the happy girl, the one without a frown.
She was always so shy, she never told anyone her secrets,
And was scared if they were known, she would be left with so many regrets.
She was so tired of smiling, laughing, being happy, when all of it was fake,
And was frightened to death by the thoughts that kept
You have no clue what goes through my head,
You don't know what I wish for,
You don't know if I take any meds,
And you surly don't know if on the inside you leave me broken and sore.
You don't know what it is like to be me,
You don't know what it's like having to be careful about what you say,
You don't know what I feel,
You can't read minds so you definitely don't know what I think.
You don't know about my pain,
You don't know what I go through,
I have no clue how I'm still sane,
It's a mystery to me, there's no clue.
Stop saying that you know everything about me,
Stop saying that you know why I do the things that I do.
Stop s
Can i stay in your dreams tonight?
I will disappear when you wake up
just for one time?
Just to be there with you
so I don't feel lonely anymore
in your dream is where I want to be tonight
will you dream of me?
Will you dream of my face?
Or do you don't even think of me?
You are all the things I need
all the things not everything!
Everything is so cliché
but you are all I ever need is me
do you want to wake up next to me?
And then look in to my eyes
and don't be afraid for me!
I aint crazy
I am just in love with you
close your eyes
and let me get inside your dream
Current Residence: Groningen Favourite genre of music: Grunge Favourite style of art: Poems Operating System: Vista (lol) MP3 player of choice: Zolid 8GB
alright! i know you guys missed me (even thought you didn't don't say it)
i didnt had Microsoft Office so i couldn't write.
...
And i have a new author tag!
original here (No it's not me XD no it also isn't my Boyfriend(i wished he was)
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Hair:
[ ] Extensions
[x] Dyed at least once
[X] Dyed it more then 5 times
[ ] Use hairspray, hair gel etc.
[ ] Change hairstyle regularly
[x] Have layers, hair feathered etc.
[] Straighten your hair
[ ] Curl your hair
[ ] Blow dry your hair
[ ] Lots of clips, hair bands etc.
So far = 3
Face:
[ ] Foundation DARKER than your natural skin tone
[ ] Foundation which matches your skin tone
[ ] Mascara
[ ] Eyeliner
[ ] Blush
[ ] Bronzer
[ ] Lip gloss, lip stick etc (purple)
[ ] Fake eyelashes
[ ] Eyelash curlers
[ ] About a million makeup bags and brushes
So far = 3
Body
[ ] A piercing
[ ] More than one piercing [two]
[ ]
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How am I feeling today?
I will keep my head down
(Yeah)
Will I get far in life? 
Hallelujah
How do my friends see me? 
Song 2
(?)
Where will I get Married? 
Hangnail
What is my best friend's theme song? 
Charlie's Birthday Bat
What is the story of my life? 
Sacrafice
(yeah i sacrafice alot)
What is/was highschool like? 
Ice Cream Time
(YAY!)
How can I get ahead in life? 
Today i started walking
(XD Yeah walking will help)
What is the best thing about me? 
Got to get out
(that i run away?)
How is today going to be? 
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